Blood for my Tears

My name is Natalie I am now 16 years old I have never met my fahter. I live with my mother and I have a sister . My life is rough and always was. I lived in conditions that I cannot will not explain because you will not understand. When things got bad with my mother her head couldn’t manage and we still had to live with her at age six I already missed two years of school. The yard that I live in was mainly family, some good, some bad and some should be dead. My mother was the poorest in the yard and was not respected at times. “Dman” my cousin was the don fi di yaad, although he was only 22, he was wicked and he was not from around ther but he saw where he could do his deeds without interfernace. “Dman” did not know his father either like almost all of us, he died when his mother gave birth. As a young girl nobody showed interest in me and if they did it was for the wrong reason. Mommy was getting better but couldnt manage and gave me to “Big Mother” who lived at the top of the lane Big Mother had a decent house and she had a shop and everything but she was not kind to me. Her daughter had a job and it was decent not common where I lived and would drive too but they still lived in a place where a lot of people would not go freely. I complained to my mother several times of the beating and illtreament and my mother took me back. I was happy but still life was still not good but I was happy to be with my mother. During this time my mother had a friend she met while the girl would come and by “Ganja” I thought the girl was very brown. And she would talk to my mother and everybody else. Sometimes she would bring food and clothes. She did not live in Jamaica but when she came she she would bring me to her house and she baked me my first birthday cake. I did not speak to her much because I could not speak like her. Anyway she like everybody else did not really know what was going on. One night when I 12 years old my friend came to me and told me that she was going to a nine night I agreed to go with her at a place called Doom Town. My mother said no but I agreed to go I thought I am twelve and I can go where ever I want. While we were there my friend and her man left me when she came back I was being raped she ran when she saw what was going on. I bled and bled someone my mother new gave me some paper and tried to clean me off. My mother saw me and started crying “Dman” was called alerted as he was for everything. He came around the back running and said to me ” A who do dis? A yu gi him? A wah gwaan? Tell mi a who ? Dem nuh know mi ? My mother told him. He told my mother to bring me to “Big Mother” to check mi out. I was ashamed to admit that I was raped so I said that he used his finger, clearly I was lying. Big Mother said “mi buss up” and the message was passed on to Dman. Dman fly down the gully and beat di bwoy to a pulp and made him eat dirt. I was not taken to the doctor and and Dman told my mother to avoid “babylon” cause dem a problem. Lucky for di “waste bwoy” it was broad day light so no machine neva rise. Days passed and my life was not the same and I did not see my friend for a long time and to add insult to injury. My mother would curse my friend saying”if yu neva go wid dah whoring gyal deh yu would neva get touch, di gyal an ar waste mumma ova a deh a tek man like trouble. Dman’s baby mother came to visit and she was also a teenager. Shi called me and said ” Yu know seh a violate dem bwoy deh violate, an him luckee seh him neva dead ova deh caw him a gwaan like him nuh know yu a who fa fambily ova yah”. I had to go on because it was just one of those things, time went by and now I have to wipe my tears and smell the blood

SHELDON WILLIAMS, STAR Writer
A female teacher from a homework centre in Kingston who was allegedly attacked and beaten severely by the father and uncle of one of her students is now recovering from brain injury and whiplash.

“Two of dem come fi dominate one likkle teacher, the man gimme some head and face lick, till me get dizzy,” she explained to THE STAR.

“I had to fight off this man while the other beat me in my head with his fist,” she added.

THE STAR understands that the incident took place on February 16 at the institution, after the teacher intervened in a dispute between two boys who had a fight at the school.

According to the woman, she had attempted to speak to both boys who had a disagreement but both seemed uninterested in quelling the dispute.

However, she proceeded to discipline the boys by speaking sternly to them before she advised them to go home. She then returned to the staffroom. Shortly afterwards, the teacher’s attention was drawn to a loud noise coming from the schoolyard.

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When the teachers responded, they saw that one of the boys had the other pinned to a wall with a large piece of board held at his neck.

The female teacher acted swiftly and retrieved the board from the youngster and told both of them to leave for their respective homes again.

She said that she then returned to the staffroom under the impression that the matter was settled.

However, moments afterwards, two men barged into the staffroom with one of the boys who was involved in the conflict.

One of the men then reportedly shouted, “A who lick me pickney?”.

When no answer was forthcoming, the son is said to have been instructed to point out which teacher had beaten him. To the woman’s surprise, she said that the boy pointed to her.

She explained that all she remembered after that was receiving blows to her face and head while she was been restrained by the other man.

“The man all knee me inna mi belly,” she said.

Since the incident, she explained that she has suffered loss of memory, frequent blackouts, and dizziness. She also had to do a cerebral scan.

She also added that none of the other teachers came to her assistance because they seemed fearful.

The teacher is now considering a change of career because of the attack.

“Me feel fi change me profession,” she emphasised. The coordinator for the centre confirmed the incident. All efforts by THE STAR to obtain the police report were unsuccessful.

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Is that a lace wig? It suppose fi mek di bleaching look speshall innit? An di long claw nail fi duh wha? Mek 45 look like 25? A doe get it ..Mozilla Fire fox is a program but a tink is it this ina di flesh rite yah….no salt nuh peppa…pure unadulterated FIREFOX

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Out of Body Experience – What is it?
An “out of body experience” (OBE) can be defined as the process of transiently separating the consciousness (spirit) from the physical body, such that the person and world are observed from outside of the body. OBE’s are also known as astral projections. There are several ways people perceive an out of body experience, including dreams, daydreams, and memories. People have reported having out of body experiences while under the influence of drugs or induced by some sort of trauma, as well as near death experiences. Astral projection is taught through books, the internet, and religious techniques. An out of body experience is said to be clearer than a dream or daydream. Those who practice astral projections claim that their senses are enhanced, allowing them to see and feel with more clarity and without physical constraint. The origins of out of body experiences are unknown. However, OBE’s have been practiced for many years in several different cultures. The New Age Movement is widely known for promoting and using this practice.

Out of Body Experience – Why Do People Seek It?
Out of body experiences are sought after by those who desire knowledge or power in the spiritual realm, endeavor to help people, are curious, or want to be entertained. In some cases, people actually seek OBE’s to cause harm to others. For the most part, an out of body experience is desired for a spiritual reason, such as reaching a higher level of consciousness or enlightenment.

Out of Body Experience – What Does the Bible Teach Us?
According to some, out of body experiences are said to be justified in the Bible, citing several scriptures. Unfortunately, those interpretations have been taken out of context or they fail to address the culture of that time. In the Bible, an out of body experience is regarded as an occult practice. The greatest evidence against OBE is that God’s people didn’t “perform” them. In all of the scriptures mentioning “in the spirit” or “caught up in the spirit,” the people didn’t seek to have an out of body experience. Instead, God came to specific people, revealing specific things for a specific purpose. These events occurred to glorify God and reveal His love for His people. The people did not seek to have an out of body experience for personal gain or to get clarity about the world or God.

Out of Body Experience – Is There Potential Harm?
People may argue that there’s no harm in having an out of body experience. However, in the Bible, it’s clear that we are not to participate in occult practices. Out of the body experiences were not part of the teachings of God. Out of body experiences could be defined as divination, sorcery, interpreting of omens, engaging in witchcraft, or casting spells. Those who perform OBE may be referred to as mediums or spiritists. Overall, these practices are called detestable in the eyes of God (Deuteronomy 18:9-11, Galatians 5:19-26, and 2 Chronicles 33:6). As a result, there could also be emotional, physical, mental, and/or spiritual harm associated with OBE practices. Since OBE is not condoned by God, it would lead us to believe that there is another force behind these phenomena. While having an out of body experience, one should keep in mind that we are to be prepared for action, self-controlled, set on the hope given to us, obedient, and not conform to our evil desires (1 Peter 1:13). Can this happen if we separate ourselves from our body?