MY PLACE

My Place

I had a so-called privilege life, I was very smart and intelligent but I did not know it.  You see everything I would do was never good enough for my mother.  When my report cards would come home from school I would fail mathematics, physics and biology.  However, I would get above the nineties in English, Literature, History and Spanish.  But that was not good enough, I was beaten and put down and I never had my mother on my side.  My mother was terrible and very abusive I stayed out of many things because of my low self esteem.  I had a lot of clothes and shoes but I never had a lot of support.  My father did not understand anything about school he only new how to make money. But he was a good father although he did not have any education he understood life. Once I was complaining to my father that I having problems at my school with another girl and he said to me “Not every where you go people are going to like you, and you are not going to like everybody, just respect people.” I am grateful for that statement because it has made my life much easier.

Although my other sisters went through the same thing mine was worse because I could not do math, I later found out that I could not use formulas so that hindered me from doing those kind of  subjects. I always asked my sister to put things together for me and she was pretty good at it.  Poor girl I told her you could have been an engineer and she said that is what I wanted to be but mommy never saw that.   She said that no one ever realized and she did not understand why my mother never saw that.  Misplaced people always want to see other people out of place.   Now I realize that I am creative and that family members are  my biggest fans.  I did not complete college but with my creativity I am never broke or unable to find work.  Life would get better. In my early thirties I created something that would catch the eye of an important person and just like that I was able to create my own magazine and do what other people could only dream of doing.  My mother is now my biggest fan.  I really don’t need any support from her now and now I have to give her emotional support.  She still has the mentality that only doctors and lawyers are valid people in society but she no longer brings her arguments to me.

My mother now tells me how smart and intelligent I am.  Before it was how worthless, stupid and not worthy.   It is too late I could have gone another way but by the grace of God I was able to stay within a certain line. I am so advanced now because I have adopted certain principles for myself and because of that people try there best to stab me in the back. I do not let people bother me  I pity them,as they try their best to heal themselves by hurting others.   There is a lot more to this story but I would like to share something with you. When I was about seven years old I had a driver who took us to school I asked him why was that man sweeping the streets.  He said well if he did not sweep and clean the streets the place would be stink and there would be no one to pick up the dead dogs or the garbage.  We would have all kinds of disease and a lot sick people even the doctors would be sick.   I remember that statement all my life and I have not remembered most of what my mother said.  What I want to say we all have a place and you are the one that has to find it because that is the place that you will be in all your life.. No one can find it for you.  If you do what you want to do in support of your talents you have to be paid you cannot suffer because you are in your place no one can remove you.  Teachers like pastors are not supposed to be trained they should be called from a higher power and that is not the case, most of them are out of their place.  What do you think will happen to your children if you leave them to someone who is misplaced? Fathers, please  encourage your children they are an extension of your life.  Mothers your children deserve your support and love they are stars in your crown.  So the next time the teacher calls you in for a meeting and  has given you the bad report ask them “What does my child do well?”